Today's been a very lazy day. I remember waking up at around 5:45 am then hitting the snooze button a lot of times. I ended waking up at 7:30. Gosh, I've been such a bum lately! I've been procrastinating a lot of my work. i guess I'm not all that inspired to study anymore. I need Rory Gilmore of GIlmore Girls to inspire me! Well my life's been pretty steady. Nigel is now back at home (he stayed in Asian Hospital due to dengue) so things are pretty much back to normal.
As for me and Gino, well he's been such a dear to me. :) He's been texting a lot and making communication. :) He even came to visit Nigel and help him out. :) Mom was so pleased with him! Ayii...haha joke! Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about how love should work and I realized that there's more to happiness with it if it isn't taken way too seriously. :) After asking my friends questions about him, they tell me to just wait and be patient. I'm so glad Gino wants me back! After everything we've been through, it's good to know someone can still love despite all the hurt and pain. I guess real love means accepting the faults of your loved one and try to turn negative things into something positive. Since I'm the girl, I shouldn't really make any moves, but ofcourse, I try to be a good friend pa rin. As of now, things are just STEADY.
About Me
- Cid Teves
- I have a very long name but most people just call me Emily or Cid. I'm a girl who loves to enjoy what life has to offer. I try to balance my life in everything. You'll see me go partying once in a while but you won't see me going to clubs every night. You'll also see me studying but you won't see my eyes strained from too much reading. Music is one thing I can't live without. When I love, I smile at the world but when I hate and I'm really sad, you'll see me ranting to my friends :P I cherish every person that comes my way and make the most of moments I get. :)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
BE HAPPY!
I was reading my first entry here, and I realized how emo I was. Gosh what has love done to me? Hahaha! Well, as of now, I'm pretty steady and HAPPY :) I'll be going to a 5 star hotel later to celebrate my Tita's birthday in Dusit hotel with my family and close close relatives. It reminds me of my childhood growing up in hotels and all. To put myself on a positive note, I know he has a good reason for no communication. :) I was probably just in paranoia for a while. I'm listening to Michael Buble's "Everything" so it makes my mood happier. Anyway, I gotta prepare for the fab night! I'm going to eat a loooot of food!!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Lost in Love
It's been more than a month since my first breakup. Yes it was a painful experience since the person that I really love did not want to be with me anymore. But time and friends help heal everything. Plus since my birthday was coming up, the breakup didn't really bother me as much.
But deep down, my heart was telling me that he'd come back to me. I knew what we both had was special, so it wouldn't go away just like that. My heart was somehow waiting and moving on at the same time. I was ready to give him a good chance since he had a good reason for ending it with me. Since he didn't come to my debut, I got the feeling this guy isn't worthy so I decided to not think about it and be happy with my life.
He wanted to meet up, so as a friend, I agreed. When I finally saw him, things were still a bit awkward for me since this was the first time I saw him that we're not together anymore. But I was pretty ok in composing myself. It was him who felt really awkward. We started out in silence. He wanted me to talk first, but I said this was his idea so I just came to listen to what he had to say. He told me he misses me and that HE WANTS ME BACK. This was a somehow a shocker for me because when he broke up, he was sure about the whole thing. At the same time, it wasn't really a surprise because I had that deep gut feeling he'll find his way back to me.
When he said that, I said no. He has to prove to me that he really wants me back. I'm not that kind of girl who just agrees and gets back together with someone.
It's been almost 2 weeks and he hasn't made any moves yet. Out of hurt and impatience, I asked him what he really wants and why he isn't making any moves. He says he wants me 100% sure but he doesn't know what to do. He wants to take his time and not rush into anything before making a decision. being the nice and understanding girl that I am, I gave him time. :) But as of now, I really want to know what will happen between me and him. I want to know his decision. No...I need to know his decision before it's too late.
But deep down, my heart was telling me that he'd come back to me. I knew what we both had was special, so it wouldn't go away just like that. My heart was somehow waiting and moving on at the same time. I was ready to give him a good chance since he had a good reason for ending it with me. Since he didn't come to my debut, I got the feeling this guy isn't worthy so I decided to not think about it and be happy with my life.
He wanted to meet up, so as a friend, I agreed. When I finally saw him, things were still a bit awkward for me since this was the first time I saw him that we're not together anymore. But I was pretty ok in composing myself. It was him who felt really awkward. We started out in silence. He wanted me to talk first, but I said this was his idea so I just came to listen to what he had to say. He told me he misses me and that HE WANTS ME BACK. This was a somehow a shocker for me because when he broke up, he was sure about the whole thing. At the same time, it wasn't really a surprise because I had that deep gut feeling he'll find his way back to me.
When he said that, I said no. He has to prove to me that he really wants me back. I'm not that kind of girl who just agrees and gets back together with someone.
It's been almost 2 weeks and he hasn't made any moves yet. Out of hurt and impatience, I asked him what he really wants and why he isn't making any moves. He says he wants me 100% sure but he doesn't know what to do. He wants to take his time and not rush into anything before making a decision. being the nice and understanding girl that I am, I gave him time. :) But as of now, I really want to know what will happen between me and him. I want to know his decision. No...I need to know his decision before it's too late.
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