Singleness :)

SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE!!!!


I'm on the road to happiness I never thought possible! I thought being single would be a drag, but it's actually really satisfying. I can now breathe easily without having to worry too much! It is such a great feeling to know that I can stand on my own. What I love most about being single is being able to notice the love that surrounds me through friends and family. When I was in a relationship, I was very constricted with the love of my boyfriend. I somehow let slip the love I receieved from other people. Yes, I do miss my ex sometimes but if he and I were still together right now, I wouldn't be as happy as I am now because I'd end up worrying and missing him too much!

As of now, I am not ready to be in a relationship because I need some time to find myself again. I kind of lost myself in my past relationship because I was too caught in lurve of love. (Guys please understand!) I can't be with someone if I still have to pick the pieces back together right?

But once I do find myself, then that's when I can be in a relationship and love the next guy with all my heart. :)

It's funny because somehow it is fate that I find myself soon. Why? Because I will be....

GOING TO THAILAND THIS FRIDAY!!

I think travelling would be the best escape to everything and figure myself out in a totally different culture. I know it's ironic, but being someplace else makes me really think about what I want and who I want in my life. That's why whenever I travel, something about me changes for the better.

Anyway, I hope that everything turns out great!

-S :)

Purple Fingers

Purple fingers-This happens when a person has been playing the guitar for a few hours. This person happens to be me.

Even with the pain, I still continue playing. Why? Because playing the guitar is so addicting! Learning the different chords really makes me happy. Being able to play a song also just makes my day. Now I can say I don't mind being at home the whole day, as long as I have a guitar by my side!

The reason why I chose the guitar is because it's very versatile. Yes I do love the violin, but the thing is, I can't sing while playing it. I recently composed a song (It's called Rain. You'll see it in my past post) and it's also the reason why I want to play guitar.

So far, I can play the songs "Hawak Kamay", "When you say nothing at all", intro of "Love Story" and intro of "Forever and Always". I'm still amazed I was able to do all this within 3 days :)

Anyway, I'm going to go back making my fingers more purple. :P

Rajo Laurel here I come!

I just came about Rajo Laurel's website and I must say I really adore his clothes! I remember when I wore one of his dresses in the mannequin of House of Laurel to my prom. :) I seriously felt like a star but also very careful at the same time not to spill anything on the dress.

I asked my tita about modelling for Rajo and I have to at least be 5'8" and I need to gain more weight. I hope in the future I can model for him!! It would be such an honor to model such intricate and lovely designs! :)

Photos courtesy of: House of Laurel

Confidence is the key

Confidence seems to be an easy word to throw around. Sometimes we think we have it, but in reality, we still lack it. In my opinion, a person can accomplish anything if he/she has confidence. As for me, I am confident in some ways (I love who I am) but I also get shy sometimes, especially when it comes to performing on stage!! Sometimes, I do wish that I'm that girl who everyone looks up to or that girl who graces the runways of New York. But a friend of mine told me to be happy with who I am.

After the breakup, I had a lot of time to think about myself since people say it's what you need to do after a breakup. I realized that even if I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, I was still the same girl I always was. :) I guess that's what mattered the most. Maybe I did get a little lost during the relationship but now that I am as free as a bird, I can build up that confidence by myself. :)

I guess there really is no point in comparing myself to other people because I am who I am. :) I just hope some people don't get jealous of me. (yes there are people who do get jealous) Sometimes, I have been a little too nice and let my self esteem get trampled upon so that other people get the limelight. But I won't do that anymore cuz like I said, I am who I am. :)

Rain

This is the lyrics to the song I just composed. I wrote this on a rainy summer and I just got out of a breakup so the pain was still a bit fresh. The rain brought back memories of love but now that everything's over, the rain just makes me feel sad. But now that I'm getting over it, the rain is starting to make me feel good again. I hope you guys like the lyrics. :)

RAIN


It’s a rainy day
And the scent of the air
Brings back sweet memories

But as each raindrop falls
It reminds me of tears
That fell of my cheeks

How could you
Do this to me
You made rain look so horrible
When its supposed to be romantic

How could you
Leave me to tears
When you promised me forever
I guess now its over

Now that the rain is still falling
I write this song and listen to
The raindrops crashing

I know that day will come
When I can smile at the rain
And say I love you to someone new

How could you
Do this to me
You made rain look so horrible
When its supposed to be romantic

How could you
Leave me to tears
When you promised me forever
I guess now its over

But as of now
You left me with sadness and regrets
So I’m gonna let the rain fall
To wash away everything

How could you
Do this to me
You made rain look so horrible
When its supposed to be romantic

How could you
Leave me to tears
When you promised me forever
I guess now its over


Hope you like it :)

It all comes to an end

After 1 year and 1 month of officially being a couple, we are now over. I was expecting the breakup to happen, because my guy is going to move to Mindanao for basketball. Basically, I was preparing my heart for the breakup already so it wouldn't hurt as much. The sad part is, he lead me on saying that there is that hope that we'll work out, so as my naive self, I believed him and tried my best to work things out in the relationship.

After everything, he broke up with me over the phone. It's just hearbreaking because I was with him personally just an hour ago before the breakup. I should have broken up with him first when I knew things were already going down a spiral staircase.

It's been a week, and we've had no communication. i'm still pretty hurt, but I know deep down, the breakup is really for the best. :) I'm young and I have so many guys to meet. I guess first love/relationship can really bring you down deep into the ocean to the point that it's so hard to swim up for air. Now that the breakup is still pretty fresh, I'm still swimming up. But once I reach the surface, I can finally have that breath of fresh air. :)

No more worrying, no more spending, and most of all, what I love about being single is getting to know myself more.

I can now say goodbye to my first boyfriend who's done so much for me. He made me know myself more and experience things that I never thought would come to me yet. Thanks for everything. :) I wish you all the best, even if I'm not with you anymore. :) I know I'll find someone better who will wait for me no matter what :D

SPAIN

Now that it's summer, travel is the first thing to come in my mind. I have always wanted to go to Europe especially Spain! If I had enough money, I'd pack everything immediately and smile at the pilot to take me directly to Spain. I have a great aunt who lives there anyway so lodging won't be a problem.

Why SPAIN?!

First of all. I love the FASHION and Spain is the home to ZARA and MANGO! Most of my clothes from those shops came from there. Half price pa. My aunt event sent me Roberto Cavalli's equivalent to 700 pesos! What a great bargain!!

Next is the beaches. Fuerteventura is like their Boracay. :)

Next is the party life. Spaniards love to live their life to the fullest and party the night away, so where else to go but to IBIZA!? Oh yeah... :D

Spain also has great churches worth taking pictures of. :D

Oh and did I also mention the hot and yummy Spanish boys?! They are everywhere. :D

If ever my guy and I end, I would go straight to Spain and enjoy every second of it. (That is if I get a sponsor. ;)