Midterms finally Over

After hours of cramming due to procrastination, midterms are finally over!!

I recieved the results on my midterm exam on Political Science. I was so surprised to get a 90! Yes I did study but not hard enough to get a 90! It feels really good. I'm just praying that my other tests will turn out at least 85 or higher!!

Now that midterms are over, I can start anew and do BETTER in my finals!!! :)

I can't wait to move to Southville! No more commuting, no more getting soaked feet due to the rain, and if I study in Southville, and higher chances of me bringing a car!!! Oh and did I say having guys around again? :)

What's the Truth?

I have been caught up in trying who to believe. My situation makes it hard because guys end up backstabbing each other. It makes it harder for me who to trust, especially when a few of these guys have and had feelings for me.

I have been told to be very careful with this guy that's courting me because he's known as a player and a backstabber. This guy tells me that's actually true, but he's also saying that he's serious with me. And when he's serious in a relationship, he's really serious. So far, he's been able to show that seriousness by coming over to my house, and trying to spend as much time with me as possible. The other guys who have been trying to warn me though about him genuinely care about me because they know I'm a good girl and they don't want me hurt. And to think these guys warning me are actually friends of the guy who's trying to court me. Backstabbing BITES!!!

I sometimes feel like a victim to all this, because I dunno who to believe. There's also another guy who has a thing for me, and he's really sweet, fun, and caring, but I hardly see him and he's known to be torpe. All the other guys are telling me to go for him instead because he really has true feelings for me and I'm the only girl in his mind. But as they say, actions speak louder than words. And this guy doesn't really show much action.

So yeah..here I am with my mind spinning trying to know who to believe.

Wait

This is a poem I made during a Filipino class because I was so fucking bored!

With each passing day
My heart feels like giving away
A love that could be so true
But I'm afraid to start anew
With someone who can possibly make me blue
I wish today could be the time
When I can finally call you mine
But our hearts will have to wait
So that we can have a love that will last
and not be out of date
When that time comes I'll be yours forever
If our hearts beat as one together
Then we can finally kiss under the rain
and dance under the stars
But till that day comes let us know each other more
And maybe, just maybe, I can be yours forevermore


*Hope you guys like it!! <3

Singleness :)

SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE!!!!


I'm on the road to happiness I never thought possible! I thought being single would be a drag, but it's actually really satisfying. I can now breathe easily without having to worry too much! It is such a great feeling to know that I can stand on my own. What I love most about being single is being able to notice the love that surrounds me through friends and family. When I was in a relationship, I was very constricted with the love of my boyfriend. I somehow let slip the love I receieved from other people. Yes, I do miss my ex sometimes but if he and I were still together right now, I wouldn't be as happy as I am now because I'd end up worrying and missing him too much!

As of now, I am not ready to be in a relationship because I need some time to find myself again. I kind of lost myself in my past relationship because I was too caught in lurve of love. (Guys please understand!) I can't be with someone if I still have to pick the pieces back together right?

But once I do find myself, then that's when I can be in a relationship and love the next guy with all my heart. :)

It's funny because somehow it is fate that I find myself soon. Why? Because I will be....

GOING TO THAILAND THIS FRIDAY!!

I think travelling would be the best escape to everything and figure myself out in a totally different culture. I know it's ironic, but being someplace else makes me really think about what I want and who I want in my life. That's why whenever I travel, something about me changes for the better.

Anyway, I hope that everything turns out great!

-S :)

Purple Fingers

Purple fingers-This happens when a person has been playing the guitar for a few hours. This person happens to be me.

Even with the pain, I still continue playing. Why? Because playing the guitar is so addicting! Learning the different chords really makes me happy. Being able to play a song also just makes my day. Now I can say I don't mind being at home the whole day, as long as I have a guitar by my side!

The reason why I chose the guitar is because it's very versatile. Yes I do love the violin, but the thing is, I can't sing while playing it. I recently composed a song (It's called Rain. You'll see it in my past post) and it's also the reason why I want to play guitar.

So far, I can play the songs "Hawak Kamay", "When you say nothing at all", intro of "Love Story" and intro of "Forever and Always". I'm still amazed I was able to do all this within 3 days :)

Anyway, I'm going to go back making my fingers more purple. :P

Rajo Laurel here I come!

I just came about Rajo Laurel's website and I must say I really adore his clothes! I remember when I wore one of his dresses in the mannequin of House of Laurel to my prom. :) I seriously felt like a star but also very careful at the same time not to spill anything on the dress.

I asked my tita about modelling for Rajo and I have to at least be 5'8" and I need to gain more weight. I hope in the future I can model for him!! It would be such an honor to model such intricate and lovely designs! :)

Photos courtesy of: House of Laurel

Confidence is the key

Confidence seems to be an easy word to throw around. Sometimes we think we have it, but in reality, we still lack it. In my opinion, a person can accomplish anything if he/she has confidence. As for me, I am confident in some ways (I love who I am) but I also get shy sometimes, especially when it comes to performing on stage!! Sometimes, I do wish that I'm that girl who everyone looks up to or that girl who graces the runways of New York. But a friend of mine told me to be happy with who I am.

After the breakup, I had a lot of time to think about myself since people say it's what you need to do after a breakup. I realized that even if I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, I was still the same girl I always was. :) I guess that's what mattered the most. Maybe I did get a little lost during the relationship but now that I am as free as a bird, I can build up that confidence by myself. :)

I guess there really is no point in comparing myself to other people because I am who I am. :) I just hope some people don't get jealous of me. (yes there are people who do get jealous) Sometimes, I have been a little too nice and let my self esteem get trampled upon so that other people get the limelight. But I won't do that anymore cuz like I said, I am who I am. :)